Change will change you
The truth is: I didn’t believe I could change my life. Not really. Not until I did.
For a long time, I lived in a version of myself I thought I was stuck with.
I was overweight, exhausted, inflamed, and constantly in pain. I believed the story that “this is just how it is for me.” That my body was broken, or that doctors would’ve already fixed it if it were fixable. That if I hadn’t changed by now, maybe I just wasn’t meant to.
And then, after a miscarriage that went terribly wrong (gestational trophoblastic disease) a doctor asked me a question that changed everything:
“Do you want to lose the weight?”
That moment did two things:
It affirmed I actually could - maybe for the first time, I believed change was possible.
It made me realize I had to decide. I had to believe it was possible.
So I did. Not with surgery. Not with medication. Not because those options are bad, but because I needed to know what my body was capable of through deep, nervous-system-rooted, sustainable change. And what I found was strength. Healing. Power I didn’t know existed in me.
But here’s the part no one talks about…
Change will change you. And not everyone in your life will like that.
You might start taking up space in ways you never have before.
You might need to say no to things you’ve always said yes to.
You might not be as available. As apologetic. As easy to manage.
You might have to feel emotions you’ve long numbed with food, wine, phone scrolls, or perfectionism.
And people will notice.
Some will cheer you on.
Some will get uncomfortable.
Some will act like you’re the problem now.
They’ll project. They’ll guilt trip. They’ll say you’ve changed.
And you’ll have to respond with the hardest truth of all…
Yes. I have. On purpose.
This coaching container isn’t about willpower.
It’s about awakening. About building rhythms that regulate your body, yes, but also reveal your power. And that will shake things up.
But you are ready!
You don’t have to earn it.
You don’t have to apologize for it.
You just have to start.
Because that version of you, the one waiting? She’s still in there. Or maybe she’s waiting to be uncovered for the first time. And NOW is the time.
Let’s go get her!
Journal Prompt 1:
"The You Who’s Waiting"
Take a quiet moment and reflect on the version of you that’s still waiting.
Who is she?
What does she crave more than anything?
What is she tired of pretending doesn’t matter?
What would it mean for her to finally feel good in her body, not later, not someday, but now?
Write a letter to her. Tell her you’re coming for her. That you see her. That she hasn’t been forgotten.
Optional Art Exercise:
“A Portrait of the You Who’s Waiting”
After you write your letter… Create a visual expression of the version of you who’s still waiting.
This can be anything:
A self-portrait (literal or abstract)
A symbolic figure (animal, plant, shape, color field)
A collage of torn paper, magazine clippings, or words
A scribble, a mess, a silhouette, whatever feels honest
You don’t need to be “artistic.” You just need to show up.
As you create, ask:
What colors represent her energy?
What shapes or textures feel like her longings?
Where in your body do you still carry her?
This is not about perfection.
This is about witnessing.
Tape it somewhere private or sacred - on your bathroom mirror, in your journal, inside a closet door, and let it remind you:
She’s still in there.
She’s still waiting.
And you’re not going to leave her behind.